New Beginning

I walked a path full of darkness and pain through the fantasy of my mind, blinded by my ego and wounded emotional body. But in reality, I was paralyzed. I could do nothing, let alone create.

I'm in a relationship that shows me my wounds. It showed me the pain from the past that I projected onto its significant other. My ego tried to convince me that she was the one hurting me. But it really had nothing to do with her. I was just continuing to experience my long-forgotten emotions.

Konečně jsem se rozhodl, že se ponořím hluboko do té rány. Rozhodl jsem se být se svými emocemi. A přestože jsem v tu chvíli nepocítil velký posun, teď se mi zdá, že se něco od té doby změnilo. Cítím se mnohem méně reaktivní na podněty, které by ve mně dříve spustily pocity bolesti.

Teď to všechno vidím ještě jasněji. Všechno to začalo v dětství, kdy došlo k nějaké události, která mi způsobila velkou bolest. Mysl si kolem toho začala vytvářet příběhy, i když třeba ani nebyly pravdivé, a tak vznikla přesvědčení. Protože jsem se s tím nedokázal v té době vypořádat, úplně jsem to všechno vytěsnil, abych se ochránil.

But this wound still exists because it hasn't been healed. So it keeps coming back in similar situations, along with those false thoughts of betrayal and abandonment. That's why I kept experiencing long-forgotten pain without it being clear why I was feeling or behaving the way I did recently.

After a long period of pain, it's time to move on. To rise again from the abandoned floor, look up to new horizons and find your light.

I want to start focusing on what I want to achieve in life. Focus on my goals and dreams that fulfill me and give my life meaning. This also includes joining forces with my godly wife because we have the same mission, which is to share our story and inspire others.

If you are going through something similar, don't let it break you. Nothing lasts forever. No falling, no staying at the bottom, no pain. You can always get back up and move on.

A nemusíš na to být sám. Určitě se najde někdo, kdo ti pomůže k uzdravení. Někdo, pro koho je taková práce posláním.

Or maybe you can let this artwork help you, reminding you every day how important it is to be with your emotions, not let yourself be broken by false beliefs, and start living again.