Regeneration

The inspiration for this painting came to me on Saturday. It was a day when, despite a long sleep, I couldn't fully wake up for the first few hours and didn't have the energy or desire to do anything. I just sat or lay there with a foggy mind and an uncomfortable feeling in my body. It occurred to me that I should slow down, be calm and be with myself today. I know I'm often too hard on myself and I feel pressured, weighed down by everything I think I need or have to do. Then I don't have time to do everything I want, and it also bothers me that I'm not good enough to do it according to my original plans.

So today I told myself that I will be calm and be kind to myself. I know that I often stress myself unnecessarily and the only result I get is that I don't feel good. The inspiration for this painting came to me during this day. I came up with the name Regenerate or Regeneration. And also the fact that I would like to paint it by letting myself be guided. I wanted to create in such a meditative state as I had done a few times before. I also thought it should be green, which in this case is a symbol of healing for me. Later in the day I remembered the song Re-generation by Paulie Garand and thought that, I don't know why, orange should be in there also.

I didn't get to paint during that day, it wasn't the right moment. The right moment came when I really didn't expect it. At half past two in the morning, just as I was about to go to sleep. And I thought to myself: "Really? Right now?”

So I got down to it. Before I started painting, I set the intention that I wanted the work to regenerate me during its creation, and to regenerate others and its future owner for decades after it was finished. To heal their physical and psychological wounds. I then painted in a state of meditation, one stroke after another, not paying attention to whether I liked it that way or not. I did exactly what I felt like doing.

I'm often a little scared when creating in this style, because I never know what will come out of it. But despite the fear, I continue to believe and let myself be guided.

It's a very interesting artwork that I would never paint using my mind. I don't know what to think of it. But it did not come from my ego, and therefore I have no right to judge it. The more I look at it, the more I start to like it and I keep finding something new in it. It is exactly as it should be and I believe it will achieve its purpose. Its creation filled me with energy and I didn't even want to sleep afterwards. It will heal you too.

And by the way, by being calm all day and doing everything with ease, an unpleasant morning turned into a very pleasant day.